Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Happy and Sad

Today was a weird mixture of happiness and sadness all at the same time. It was one of the most unusual experiences I have ever had.

It was not one of those, "I am sad. Now, I am happy."

It was more or less, "I am sad, no, I am happy, no, wait. I am both."

I don't really know if I liked or didn't like it. I think I am leaning more towards liking it.

I liked the fact that I was able to feel two different emotions at once and not feel completely out of control. I liked that it felt real. That sounds odd, I'm sure, but it felt like that it must be what it feels like when you are happy yet hear something sad and it makes your heart ache. It was kind of like that.

It was certainly a learning experience, that's for sure.

Sunday, October 9, 2011


I am so aggravated tonight. I can't seem to concentrate and think over it. The feeling is just too strong. I am just so cranky. I don't want to be mean to my friends, but I just feel like telling them all to just shut up and leave me alone.

My day was not very good too. I was nauseas all day and the only thing I could eat was some crackers. So, I didn't eat nearly all day because of it. I feel like crying. I am annoyed and cranky and I keep having flashbacks today. Today was just not a good day.

Is this normal?

I understand that people feel this way every once in a while, but is it normal to feel this at the same time nearly every day?

Any ideas?