So, I had some ultrasounds done today.
Not my favorite way to spend a Thursday, but you got to do what you got to do.
I'm not going to lie, I have been stressing over this for the last week.
I had to get a regular pelvic ultrasound and a vaginal ultrasound. They basically stuck a wand type thing up my hoo-ha. It was not pleasant.
I survived though.
I had to tell the technician doing it about my concerns.
That is one thing I highly recommend if you have ever been abused and need to get these done. Talk to the technician! Tell him/her your concerns and fears! It will definitely make you feel better! They can't read your mind, so don't expect them to know!
Because I told my technician about my past, she said that at any time, I could tell her to stop.
I WAS IN CONTROL.
I didn't have to tell her to stop because she did a fantastic and quick job and got all the pictures she needed, but the option was there. I was in control over what she was doing to my body and it made me feel more at ease.
I want to let you know, that I did not just go into the doctor's office and got it done and left. No. It wasn't that simple for me.
I had to mentally prepare myself for like 4 days. No joke.
I have been practicing my deep breathing and deciding on what to think of to keep myself grounded and in control of my thoughts and feelings.
I am not going to lie, I am pretty proud of myself. I did it. I kept myself in control and kept my thoughts (mostly) under control and calm.
I am getting closer to a happier and healthier life through all of these different obstacles.