What the heck!?
My life is so messed up right now!
This guy that I have been talking to and I believe I have written about, have been talking about being in a relationship.
What I don't understand is that he goes from super flirty to wanting to just be friends. I get so confused. He says he has trouble opening up to people. I get that, but why does he have to make things so hard. Can't we just sit and talk and enjoy each other?
It doesn't have to be so hard!
I have enough issues with relationships since my abuse and I don't need more!
It scares the crap out of me thinking that there is a possibility that I could end up getting physically and emotionally close to someone.
At first it made me physically ill to think of it.
I am not so bad anymore. I just get super nervous and constantly think that I could get hurt. No matter how much I trust the person, I constantly think that I could be raped.
I need to work on that, but not with this guy. He doesn't respect me enough.
I need to work some stuff out here.
Any advice is greatly apprecitated!