Sunday, August 5, 2012

What the Heck!?

What the heck!?

My life is so messed up right now!

This guy that I have been talking to and I believe I have written about, have been talking about being in a relationship.

What I don't understand is that he goes from super flirty to wanting to just be friends. I get so confused. He says he has trouble opening up to people. I get that, but why does he have to make things so hard. Can't we just sit and talk and enjoy each other?

It doesn't have to be so hard!

I have enough issues with relationships since my abuse and I don't need more!

It scares the crap out of me thinking that there is a possibility that I could end up getting physically and emotionally close to someone.

At first it made me physically ill to think of it.

I am not so bad anymore. I just get super nervous and constantly think that I could get hurt. No matter how much I trust the person, I constantly think that I could be raped.

I need to work on that, but not with this guy. He doesn't respect me enough.

I need to work some stuff out here.

Any advice is greatly apprecitated!


Patricia Singleton said...

Listen to your gut. It sounds like you have already figured out your answer. Don't let him push you into something that you aren't ready for. You decide what is right for you, not him.

Lara said...

Thank you for your kind words! I have taken care of the situation...more to come on that later though! :)