I am still learning how to drown out my saddness with laughter and happiness, but today it is just not working. Nothing seems to work. I tried everything. I got some news earlier today that made my heart just sink down as low as it could go. The kind of news that makes your stomach drop and your mind kind of stops working. Yeah, that is what I felt. I don't know how to deal with the saddness from the news I got, so, that saddness is now on top of my previous saddness.
I know that trying to make myself happy will not work today. There will be no laughter today, no fun. I just don't feel like it. I tried to make myself happier and failed miserably. Today will just be a sad day. A day with saddness on top of saddness.